From Freezing to Focused: Lessons Learned During My First Code Blue
During my first year of nursing school, I had my first night clinical shift in the Medicine ward . That’s when I saw CPR being performed on a patient for the first time. We had learned about CPR in theory, but not in enough detail to actively participate in such a high-stress resuscitation. So, all I could do was stand in the doorway, watching as nurses rushed to push medications, doctors performed compressions, and visitors cried in the background. I was frozen—not just because I didn’t know what to do, but because the reality of chest compressions was far more intense than what I had practiced on a mannequin. The sheer force used shocked me. It was nothing like the controlled, step-by-step technique we were taught in class. Despite the resuscitation team’s best efforts, the patient didn’t make it. It was a sobering lesson: no matter how well you memorize the checklists or ace the theoretical knowledge, a real Code Blue is so...